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Tuesday, December 22, 2009

今天是冬至

今天是冬至..
汤圆,汤圆,吃了就会团圆。
可以吗?
真的可以团圆吗?

这个冬至我过得很悲哀...
没有他在身边,真的很不习惯...
遥远的他,在做着什么呢?
有在想我吗?还是根本不屑我对他的思念呢?
好笑吗?他当我只是一个制造麻烦的东西。
两年了,除了不开心的回忆,就什么都没有了吗?
我总是学习着放下我们之前的不开心,每次吵架都会想回我们每一次开心的回忆。
就这样,我一次一次地离不开你,也一次一次地更爱你。

你现在会想要看回我们以前的照片吗?
会想到我们一起开心的旅行吗?
我们的七仔?
你为我做的每一件事?
你每天等我放学?
你每天都爱吃我煮的菜呢?
这些都被不开心给比下去了吗?
你只记得,我们的不开心吗?
可是,我记得我们的开心和不开心比起来,是超越很多很多的。
你都想不起吗?
以前不管我们怎么吵架,因为我们都还能见到对方,就会有机会再说话,有机会挽回。
可是现在你离开我那么远,我们的机会没有了。
还想什么要复合呢?
我应该想太多了吧。

以为可以忘记你,结果原来都不能。
有时想要当你是我的朋友,有时又不能原谅你这样子离开我。
我生病了,就会想起你买药给我吃,想起你很心疼地骂我喝很少水。
早上起床,没有你躺在我的身边,没有你哄我起床。
吃东西的时候,就会想起你每次都会担心我吃不饱。
看着七仔,就会看见当时你送给我的时候,我是多么得开心,每天都不离手,也不让你欺负它。
驾车的时候,又会想起你以前每次坐在我的身边唠叨我驾车不小心。
我每天碰的每一事,一物,都有你深深的影子。
你还说要我忘记你,我怎么做得到呢?
我要离开,忘记这里。
当时间一天一天的过去,我就越舍不得了。

怎么办呢?
好头痛呀。
最坏就是你啦。
一直以来都那么爱我,疼我,照顾我,保护我。
谢谢你,毅恒。







Thursday, December 17, 2009

~犀鸟~


犀鸟...是我国稀少的飞禽动物。
它们居住在东马以及东海岸一带...
森林是它们的家。

但是,最近它们都已离开了他们的家...
去到全国各地,因为它们的家园遭到人类的破坏。
它们没有呆呆的待在原地,而是到处寻找它们的容身之处。

做人不也是一样吗?
当你无法适应的时候,你会继续向前走还是留在原地呢?
对,或许当你向前走时,所走的路并不是你想要的...
但是,如果你不去走的话,你怎么知道或许那是一条更好的路呢?
我们不该放弃,继续前进。
就算碰到墙壁又怎么样?
起码,你曾经尝试过;
那些不尝试的,你可以感受到什么?

或许,我想我也应该要离开了。。。

Tuesday, December 15, 2009

~you and me~

had quit my job de....
not bcoz of others...
juz bcoz of you...
u said you dont like i stay here...
i quit in the next day...

you wan me back to you..
but now u push me away...
u didnt take care of me anymore...
u didnt realized that i still love u...
u never realized waiting can kill a person!!!
u never realized that i sacrified so much of things bcoz of YOU...

u owayz thought that i love u not enough...
what i had done is too much...
what u done is because of me...
what u wan i oso cant understand...
what u think i oso not understand...

what should i do now...?
everyday everytime i am trying to pull you back...
everytime we argue, no matter is your fault or my fault...
at the end, i am still the one who pull us together...
but you...a little bit problem onli, you just pandai require to break off...
y u cant be matured a bit, think of the problems, and solve the problems..
but not make decision base on your particular feeling....
sometime u said u wan me back to u, sometime u hurt me with the stupid msg that you never want to be with me again...

how come u can hurt me like that...?
always said is me who caused you leave me...
u done a bucks of stupid decisions i still try and try to pull us together...
y u cant do that...?

if u wan to calculate like that, how many times i should break off with you...?
1, 2, 3, or .......i dont know...

u always thought that i have another one at here...
if i really really have another one, what for i trying to pursue you again again...?
i beg you..i require you...i pull you back....just because I LOVE YOU!!

now i onli realized that all my love to you, you just put it on the floor and step on it!!!!!!!!!
what for i still be so cheap in front of you....?
my love really so valueless until u cant feel it...?
or may be you have another who can provide you the lOVE that u want...?
if yes so, pls let me know...
i dont wan to be a BITCH that owayz turn and turn in front of u...
i am NOT a BITCH!!!!!!!!!!!PLS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!