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Tuesday, December 22, 2009

今天是冬至

今天是冬至..
汤圆,汤圆,吃了就会团圆。
可以吗?
真的可以团圆吗?

这个冬至我过得很悲哀...
没有他在身边,真的很不习惯...
遥远的他,在做着什么呢?
有在想我吗?还是根本不屑我对他的思念呢?
好笑吗?他当我只是一个制造麻烦的东西。
两年了,除了不开心的回忆,就什么都没有了吗?
我总是学习着放下我们之前的不开心,每次吵架都会想回我们每一次开心的回忆。
就这样,我一次一次地离不开你,也一次一次地更爱你。

你现在会想要看回我们以前的照片吗?
会想到我们一起开心的旅行吗?
我们的七仔?
你为我做的每一件事?
你每天等我放学?
你每天都爱吃我煮的菜呢?
这些都被不开心给比下去了吗?
你只记得,我们的不开心吗?
可是,我记得我们的开心和不开心比起来,是超越很多很多的。
你都想不起吗?
以前不管我们怎么吵架,因为我们都还能见到对方,就会有机会再说话,有机会挽回。
可是现在你离开我那么远,我们的机会没有了。
还想什么要复合呢?
我应该想太多了吧。

以为可以忘记你,结果原来都不能。
有时想要当你是我的朋友,有时又不能原谅你这样子离开我。
我生病了,就会想起你买药给我吃,想起你很心疼地骂我喝很少水。
早上起床,没有你躺在我的身边,没有你哄我起床。
吃东西的时候,就会想起你每次都会担心我吃不饱。
看着七仔,就会看见当时你送给我的时候,我是多么得开心,每天都不离手,也不让你欺负它。
驾车的时候,又会想起你以前每次坐在我的身边唠叨我驾车不小心。
我每天碰的每一事,一物,都有你深深的影子。
你还说要我忘记你,我怎么做得到呢?
我要离开,忘记这里。
当时间一天一天的过去,我就越舍不得了。

怎么办呢?
好头痛呀。
最坏就是你啦。
一直以来都那么爱我,疼我,照顾我,保护我。
谢谢你,毅恒。







Thursday, December 17, 2009

~犀鸟~


犀鸟...是我国稀少的飞禽动物。
它们居住在东马以及东海岸一带...
森林是它们的家。

但是,最近它们都已离开了他们的家...
去到全国各地,因为它们的家园遭到人类的破坏。
它们没有呆呆的待在原地,而是到处寻找它们的容身之处。

做人不也是一样吗?
当你无法适应的时候,你会继续向前走还是留在原地呢?
对,或许当你向前走时,所走的路并不是你想要的...
但是,如果你不去走的话,你怎么知道或许那是一条更好的路呢?
我们不该放弃,继续前进。
就算碰到墙壁又怎么样?
起码,你曾经尝试过;
那些不尝试的,你可以感受到什么?

或许,我想我也应该要离开了。。。

Tuesday, December 15, 2009

~you and me~

had quit my job de....
not bcoz of others...
juz bcoz of you...
u said you dont like i stay here...
i quit in the next day...

you wan me back to you..
but now u push me away...
u didnt take care of me anymore...
u didnt realized that i still love u...
u never realized waiting can kill a person!!!
u never realized that i sacrified so much of things bcoz of YOU...

u owayz thought that i love u not enough...
what i had done is too much...
what u done is because of me...
what u wan i oso cant understand...
what u think i oso not understand...

what should i do now...?
everyday everytime i am trying to pull you back...
everytime we argue, no matter is your fault or my fault...
at the end, i am still the one who pull us together...
but you...a little bit problem onli, you just pandai require to break off...
y u cant be matured a bit, think of the problems, and solve the problems..
but not make decision base on your particular feeling....
sometime u said u wan me back to u, sometime u hurt me with the stupid msg that you never want to be with me again...

how come u can hurt me like that...?
always said is me who caused you leave me...
u done a bucks of stupid decisions i still try and try to pull us together...
y u cant do that...?

if u wan to calculate like that, how many times i should break off with you...?
1, 2, 3, or .......i dont know...

u always thought that i have another one at here...
if i really really have another one, what for i trying to pursue you again again...?
i beg you..i require you...i pull you back....just because I LOVE YOU!!

now i onli realized that all my love to you, you just put it on the floor and step on it!!!!!!!!!
what for i still be so cheap in front of you....?
my love really so valueless until u cant feel it...?
or may be you have another who can provide you the lOVE that u want...?
if yes so, pls let me know...
i dont wan to be a BITCH that owayz turn and turn in front of u...
i am NOT a BITCH!!!!!!!!!!!PLS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Monday, November 30, 2009

星期六

那天晚上,抱着七仔哭了一夜...
不知怎么的...
很想很想他...

从网络上得知他回来了,个人情况也转去单身了...
还上载了很多照片,戒指, 和一些他出去玩的照片。
那堆照片中,看见一张他和一个女生的照片,我的心很痛,就算知道他们不可能...
可是忽然觉得他离我很远...
我做了一个决定,决定就此放手了...

真的很不舍得...信息他告诉他我这个决定..
没想到他还没睡,而且还说了很多他的想法给我听...
他越讲,我的泪就流得越多...
他打来我不是不敢接...
而是就算我接了...
我也说不到话...
他还说了很多我不在他身边后的事让我知道...
原来还有很多东西,我都不知道...

我后来做了另一个决定。
我要转工,找一份工作时间自由的工作...
这样我就可以有更多的时间陪他,和我的家人...
希望我可以找到...

只因为辞职信已经呈上去了...
再找不到工作的话,恐怕又要减肥了!!!!~~

Friday, November 27, 2009

晴天

今天,天气很好..
听说他今天就回国了...而且还生病了...
可是对我来说,不管他在哪里都是一样的...
始终他都不在我身边...
开心就好,何必要求那么多...
可是我真的开心吗?

回到这里,我没有了情人,可是幸亏上天怜悯我,还赐予我很多朋友。
中学的,以前工作认识的,现在的同事,甚至小学同学,都一一出现了...
有些还跟以前一样,有聊不完的话题...
可是有些距离却越来越远了....
不过,总好过我身边一个人都没有吧...

圣诞节要到了,朋友们有什么特别计划吗...?
我自己呢..
就打算请假连续休息三天,然后想带妹妹跟表姐们去 Sunway Lagoon Bukit Tamun Petting Zoo..
想去很久了...但是都没有机会...
还可以顺便去走走逛逛街...
那么你们呢?
应该都是跟你们最爱的另一半一起度过吧...

还记得去年的圣诞节都是跟他们的家人一起度过...
那时他还傻傻地特意介绍他那些“女性朋友”给他的家人认识...
我看见了,真的非常不开心...
不过,他有一个明事理的爸爸,看见我静静的坐在那里,竟然会帮他的孩子哄回我...
告诉我说,他只认我是他孩子的女朋友,别的女生他都不想认识...
听到这个肯定,真的很开心,可是为什么是他爸爸在哄我,而不是他自己本身呢?
是不是我们之间一早就出现了裂缝,只是我们都没察觉到。
不管怎么样,还是谢谢他的爸爸,不只哄回我,还顾虑到我的感受。

说真的,他爸爸真的很疼我,可能是因为他爱他的孩子,所以间接也很疼我吧。
他的家人,妈妈,弟弟,姑姑,姑丈,堂姐,表弟,表妹, 全都对我很好,很疼我。
就好像我已经是他们家庭的一部分。
真的很想念他们,想念和他们一起度过的时光,一起旅行,一起吃喝....
真的永远都忘不了,因为我也已经把他们当做家人看待了...

家人,对我很重要...
非常非常地重要....
最算可以放得下爱情,可是亲情是永远都放不下的...
谢谢您们在我生命中留下美好的回忆,美丽的绚彩。
有机会再聚吧。

Tuesday, November 17, 2009

失落沙洲 - 徐佳莹

最近我爱上了这一首歌:失落沙洲 - 徐佳莹

你不在了,我的一切一切不再像从前一样。
以前,回到家都希望能够第一时间告诉你我回到家了。
现在,回到家后第一时间就是吃晚餐,吃完了就休息。
以前,每个周末都在找时间去怡保找你。
现在,每个周末都在看戏睡觉,打发时间。
以前,你会信息我,叫我亲爱的。
现在,你没再信息我了,就连我信息你,你也懒惰回我了。
明天,是星期三了,你知道吗?
我真的很怕,以后我还能见到你吗?
很希望你自己可以负起这个责任,可是另一边却希望你能够抽身。
我自己也很烦恼,到底自己想怎么样?
我真的希望我们能在一起,可是说真的你肩膀上太多重任了。
我觉得你活得很辛苦,我看到你却帮不到你,我更辛苦。
我根本就没资格去爱你,去疼你,我只在增加你的麻烦。
不管你做什么,你都要顾着后面的我,不能很自由地去做你想做的事。
尤其是现在,我不在你身边,就连你想要一个拥抱,我也给不到你。
像我这样的女友,有人会要吗?
以前跟现在真的不同了。
完完全全不同了.......



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又来到这个港口
没有原因的拘留
我的心乘着斑驳的轻舟
寻找失落的沙洲

随时间的海浪漂流
我用力张开双手
拥抱那么多起起落落
想念的 还是你望着我的眼波

我不是一定要你回来
只是当又一个人看海
回头才发现你不在
留下我迂回的徘徊
我不是一定要你回来
只是当又把回忆翻开
除了你之外的空白
还有谁能来教我爱

...
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Monday, November 16, 2009

又是星期一

今天上班迟到了,原因我很累睡迟了...
上个星期六,工作很简单,整个早上都是在上网...
然后帮同事载人去车站...去邮政局...去银行...
当然我还顺便在回公司的路上买了我爱吃的豆沙饼...很新鲜。好吃!
星期天,太得空没事做了...
早上一早陪妈妈爸爸吃早餐...
我吃最传统的烤面包。


下午带了monica和她的孩子去冰淇淋屋吃午餐和吃香蕉船..
后来没事做就顺便陪我去剪头发...
剪了一个新发型...
问了他,说我很可爱...听了后超级兴奋的,毕竟他只看到我的照片而已...
妈妈很喜欢,妹妹很喜欢...monica也很喜欢...
晚上也去了参与一个慈善义演,有苏永康,罗宾,秦咏,风采姐妹和林佩盈,担任嘉宾。
康康坐着直升机来到现场,当他步入礼堂时,他就在我几尺前,但是我不但没拍到他的照片,也没跟他握到手...
不过却看得他很清楚...没海报中那么瘦削。

后来整个过程中,我们都玩得很尽兴...还随着音乐起舞...
真的很累...
后来回到家才想起,除了那个午餐和冰淇淋就没吃过东西了...就随便吃了一点赶快洗脸睡觉了...

今早,睡迟了。
也来不及买午餐去公司。
待会去买擂茶吃。。
我好喜欢吃哦。
总觉得很健康。


好了。完毕。

Tuesday, November 10, 2009

空无一人

今天整个部门只剩我一个人来工作
不知怎么。。全都没进来。。
有一些些安静。。

很想什么都不做就回去他的身边。。。
可是。。。
我可以吗?
我可以就这样丢下工作,回去他身边吗?
以后这里的人和朋友会怎么看我。。。
真得很想离开。。。

全部的单都出了问题,
不只我烦恼,就连生产部门也很头痛。。
我一再而再地发出警告信,可是有用吗?
当务之急,是要解决问题,而不是追究问题。。

想拿假,会被允许吗?
我真的很想一个人出去逛逛。。。
哪里都好。。
只是很想一个人静静的想东西。。。
就只是一个人。。。。。。。。
最近都是一个人。。
虽然寂寞孤单,可是我得到疲惫工作后清静。。。

Monday, November 9, 2009

today...

这几天都在等着你的信息。。
多么希望我们还能够在一起。。
可是电话每次响起。。都等不到你。。

可是今天我终于明白了,
我想我从今以后不应该再等了。。
你真的那么在意她吗?
一再而再的为了她伤害我们的感情。。
你知道我的心有多痛吗?

你常常说没有人了解你,没有人关心你。
那我呢?在我眼中我是透明的吗?
我常反对你,你以为我真得那么开心吗?
我只是不想看见你,明知有坑还偏偏让你去踩吗?

既然你心里有她,何必拿我心里有另外一个来跟我分手呢?
我真的那么低溅吗?
一直以来你都拿我在替代她。。
你要骗就骗我一辈子,永远都不要让我发现,现在你以为我真的可以承受得了吗?
一次又一次。。

为什么你二十多岁人了,还那么幼稚?那么无知?
爱情是玩意儿吗?
你要玩,请你滚到一边去玩!!我玩不起!!
我已经被你玩惨了。。。
我的心已经被你伤得支离破碎。。
要怎么补偿?喝多两罐鸡精会好回吗?

快要两年了。。。
你还是没变过。。
依然三心两意,得一进二,狂妄自大。。自以为是。
我还是那个“以为"你很爱我的人。。无聊,自以为是!
有钱不是大完的。。。
今天你怎么伤害我,以后就会有人以同样的方式伤回你。。。
你不是被我伤得不会留泪。。
而是你根本没把我放在心里。。也不会再为我而流泪。。

今天种下的恨,我永远都不会忘记。!!我发誓!
我不只恨你,我还很讨厌你。
就像当初一样,我不应该听立文和静娴的话,说你真心改过!
说你只是一时喜欢别人。。
事发晚上也不应该一起去喝东西。。
第一次我就应该接受事实你不再爱我,就在那个时侯分手。。
要不然车祸就不会发生,他们也不会永远离开我。。

Wednesday, November 4, 2009

ENDED

yaya...everything were end..
he not belongs to me anymore...
i didnt cry, even one drop of tears oso dont have...

feel so heart pain, but reali dont know what to do and awhat to say...
try to pull him back..
but seem like onli is me who wish to do that...
but him...?
seem like dont wish so...

one by one of sms stating that i am not his dear anymore...
hei...bro, although is friends who argue u oso cannot keep on say "u are not my friends" otherwise it is very hurt one...

haiz..

Sunday, October 18, 2009

my job...

my job~~
make me so tired...

unfinish jobs....have been build up a small mountain on my desk...
documents that never settle...was past to me from my ex-colleagues...

alot...alot...

thoudsand of words in my mind...
no one let me to talk to...

thousand of problems that i dont know how to overcome...

thousand of decisions that i still never know how to decide...

i was changed...
changed to a person less talking...
less eating...
acting happy in front of others...
acting like a happy person..

actually...i am not...
my weight become lesser and lesser...
no one realize of it...
onli the foreigner that works with me who realized...
bcoz i owayz weighing on the weighing machine there use to work...

i have never scold them since the 1st day i work...
but that day i was out of control...
i not only scold them...even i showed my expressions on my face...
Oh my god!!!!
i dont want...
i should control my emotion...
i should be patient to them...
i am not their boss...

sorry...thousand of sorries to them....
reali very sorry..
sorry...
sorry..
sorry.
sorry

Wednesday, October 7, 2009

recently..

Recently there are so many problems happened around me...
friends facing operation...
acident...
high fever until hospitalize...
love problems....
friends problems....
job problems....
so much.................................................................
infiniti....
cant be calculated.
Hope that can give me holidays now...
run away from job...friends...problems...
to the hugging of world...
that full with nice scene and freedom...
haiz...i juz can dream it onli...
bcoz i cant finish my job...
even i had no time to log in my facebook...!!!!!!!!!
some more...god is not love me....
i gastric...sore throat...headache..almost ONE WEEK!!!
but no time to see doctor...
just have OT that upaid...

Saturday, September 19, 2009

最后一次

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在我最后一次
闭上眼睛之前
我想对你说
我爱你~
在你怀里
舍不得放弃
心里有千言万语
还没说给你听
我使尽全力
不想闭上眼睛
这次告别就不能再相遇
不能再陪你
但不要忘记
你曾经答应我
你会好好活下去
先走了
去了好远的地方
不能再陪你看日出
等不到天亮
所有回忆抹去
却并不容易
生死由天决定
不要太伤心
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a touching song that i get it from youtube.
click to follow on this story and song..
have a look on..

Tuesday, September 15, 2009

~Today~

Juz now, i be informed that one of the my company's buyer was pass away...
is due to blood cancer...
although i am not know her well...
but according to my colleague..she is very care about her job..
although she was in sick, but she still complete her job well...

the GOD was care about her..God had brought her to his side...
be an angel and take rest le...
although for those alive, will be sad and difficult to accept this new...
but for her...at least she relieved from pain and difficultness....

suddenly it make me think back my friends...lup mun and janice...
miss them so much...cooz i still cant accept that they left me...
if they still alive, can they still like b4 or they will be in coma...?
and once again thanks for ee who stand by my side during the time in school after they left me...

Hope God will bless and lead them in the heaven...
lead them to happiness and painless world in the future...
Hope all of them rest in peace.

Saturday, September 12, 2009

In Genting...

derick and me were going to Genting on his birthday..!!
not for special celebrating...juz go there to take some fresh air...

derick, hapy birthday to u ah!!!^_^HAHA

didnt took so much of pics on that day...but we have took enough rest and ate enough some nice food...

once arrived and check in, sure is taken my favourite food...is KFC.
yah...although not so special..but i like it so much..!!!!!
we ate it in our room who facing the outdoor view...so nice...
after that, we slept until dinner time only woke up...
because of i forgot to bring along y jacket and scarf..therefore we juz stay indoor only...
there was a little rain on that day...so better i just stay in my room...and in door shopping area only...
**View From my room...juz randomly took.**



that nite, actuali we are proposed to go eat buffet in Highland Hotel...but it is too far due to i living in 1st world...
therefore, we went for 阿一鲍鱼。。。near and cheap while the food is not bad too...
after that, we walk around the 1st world plaza..highland hotel and having my favourite ice cream..."BR"....

**Abalone**


**BR ice cream**


after that, having cooffee in starbucks then we were wlking back to our room and slept again...haha...it just like a sleep and eat journey for me...

**Starbucks Coffee**



we were woke up earli in the next morning, after having the lunch...we play some games in in door theme park...than our next destination is KL.

1st at all, dont know whether we want to go or not...
but at least i was in contacted with my BF, ee.
so hapy that can met her in sunway pyramid. and having a consider as valuable lunch with her in Kim Gary.
i am very happy and finished all my food this time...

**Kim Gary Tomato Soup**



we walked around in the plaza and i was on the way back to ipoh around 6pm...
although not so long time we meet and chat...but it is enough...haha...

hope can meet u again, and thanks for accompany me for lunch yah!!!

now was back to normal...
derick working...
me in weekend spending with my sis in ipoh...
everything was running so well now...

now got to go...pics will be uploaded when i am free...
thanks for reading my blog...bye bye!!!muackzzz...^@^



**me and derick**


Sunday, August 30, 2009

Surprising CeleBration




yesterday was giving a big Surprise for my boy...
juz wan to make him happy and surprising...
besides that, although we juz chat a while...
but very happy that can see mun ee, john, and wilson...
bcoz reali a long time we didnt meet each others...
miss them so much...
got a lot to talk to...
life is like that...
nothing will stay with u long life...
so pls appreciate the ppl and things that surrounding you...
use your life to appreciate them and love them..
haha...

yesterday tried a Kiwi Journey...
s a mixed of kiwi and orange juices...
so nice...hehe

Saturday, August 29, 2009

Long weekend = Weekend + National Day

This weekend is a long weekend...
didnt go anywhere....
juz back to ipoh...
to meet my friends and loved one....
exciting feeling now...
haha...


how about u all...?
spending holiday with friends...?
with honey...?
with hubby and family....?

no matter how...
spend more time on who you loved...
appreciate the time u live here...

life is not long....
when u are 80 years old...
you will found that...
in just a blink...80 years past....

so stand up now...and tell yourself...
Love Your Family...Love your Friends...and the most important is Love ME!!!

haha....
k lah....nothing to say so....
bye bye lah...
hehe....

Friday, August 21, 2009

2 weeks....

yah...2 weeks...
is 2 weeks....u are not wrong and i am not wrong too...
i am working here almost 2 weeks...
for me, it was be a mysterious....
what cause that make mestill stay at here....?
due to colleague...?
no..i dont think so...but they are nice and friendly.
due to salary...?
NONONO... lah....very low man....
due to my toughness....?
erm....i think no lah...
or may be due to my family...?
haiz....no lah...definitely nonono....
why i still here...?
funny man..i am not the type that can stay for a job in a long period...
bcoz i wan to find out everything that i wan to know that i curious...
so...y i am still here....?
i think is because i tired le bah....
tired to go there and here...
tired to find out the mysterious...
tired to allocate myself to a new environment...
tired to.....
tired....
i want STUDY!!!!
but when...?
when onli i can further my study...?
i wan to...but i dont wan to...
pls help me...
get me away from this situation...
i am so suffer in...

Saturday, August 15, 2009

~mY jOb~

wahaha...i start to work de....
althought a small company in a small town...
but the job was quite interesting...
everyday contacting with the bra....
especially is i responsible for oversea orders...
so u know lah...
the size is bigger than Asian one...
hahaha.....

working for one week oledi...
never think that wanted to quit...
so may be can work for a long period this time....
i am confident on myself...
hehe...hope so lah...

erm...noting special happens this week...

so keep on waiting for my next updating...
see you..bye bye

Friday, August 7, 2009

Back to Teluk iNtan (talking a bit ABout Friendship~~~)

i had back to my hometown oledi...
need to make some preparation for my new job...
and facing new challenges...


Recently, have a friend make me very confusing...
is it friend need to always contact only can consider as friend...?
for me, it's NOT.
i have so much of friends that lack of communication...
but we are still friends...
when they need help, i will help.
when i need help, they will help.
Both of us wont hope to get any compensation.
WHY?
because we are friends.
this only can consider as friends.

if because of some problems, You helped me b4.
ya...i feel thankful to u and i will put it in my in my heart.
but you are not, you said me only will treat you good ans find you when i need help.
if you are a true friend, u wont hope to get any compensation from them after u do a favour for them.
I very thank you that u helped me b4 and i will put it in my mind forever.

but you are talking too much..you have no qualification to comment on me...
every ppl hav different characteristic and thinking....
sorry that i starting to put a "STOP" signsboard on you.
may be u are not the type of friends that i need.

So please, you are not the master of the world, no body will listen to you.
But if what you said is reasonable, the whole world will listen to you.
And dont just think for yourself, but think for the people that surrounding you.

Wednesday, August 5, 2009

~went for SteaM boAt jUz Now~

juz now my boy and i were going for steamboat at MP....
first time onli 2 of us having steamboat together...
hehe....
first time we can eat slowly and realxing...
especially is without argueing....haha...although not so much we ate but still valueable for this expencesa lah....
and took 2 or 3 pic onli....







Monday, August 3, 2009

considering whether to watch OVERHEARD or not

i was in ipoh now...
holiday-ing for the left day before 10th August...
hehe....get known that Stephy said the movie is very good and memorable...
hehe..starting o consider whether wan to watch or not...
before i planned to watch THE Proposal...which is a funny romantic movie...
haiz....or may be i can watch both too...
HehehehE...

OverHeard


Cast and Crew

Director: Felix Chong, Alan Mak

Cast: Daniel Wu, ChingWan Lau, Louis Koo
Genre: Thriller
Run Time: 105mins


Synopsis:
A major stock exchange in the world, Hong Kong attracts not only money but anyone who tries to manipulate the market. At the Hong Kong Police Force Commercial Crime Bureau, an operation is underway to infiltrate a trading company where a man nicknamed Boss is the chief suspect. The team, led by Inspector Leung (Lau Ching Wan) together with Yeung (Louis Koo) and Lam (Daniel Wu) installs bugs to monitor the communications. When crucial information on a surging share is intercepted, a moment of greed now puts them in a crossfire between the Bureau and the boss.

I gOt jOb

Finally...
God love me so much...
easily..i got my job...
but the superior who interviewed me..
was saying something that weird to hear during our conversation...
She said..." my SPM Biology get 9G, is not good...and u should get average result for every subjects. "
haiz.....i am a genius...some more i owayz go for test with my luck but not my hardworking...
ok well...dont talk about sasd things...
erm...my position in the company is SALES MERCHANDISER.
this job is do sumthing like deal with the customer, following sales order, selling, promoting, applying shipping license, shipping method, communicate with the buyer through E mail, and etc...
my job is A to Z...From promoting until ending the sales and follow up service.
sound like very difficult...make me feel a bit regret to interview this job..
if i know it earlier should be i inerview the HR position..juz calculating the salary and control the Foreign Worker...
But never mind lah...may be i can gain many knowledge that i may not get from my study.
and some more i like challenging...
i think i can afford all this de...
hahahaha........sombong nya....
hehe....
dont know how about all my friends....
is there everything in well condition...?
is there your working is ok...?
is there your study is ok....?
misss my friends so much...^@^

The following are my company links. if interested, go visit the website to understand what type of company i work for.
http://nyoklan.com.my/
http://www.modernform.net/

Friday, July 31, 2009

interview

Going for interview 2molo...
feeling nervous right now...
cant fall asleep...
hope GOD bless me that i can get this job...
and get nice and friendly superior and colleagues.....
thanks GOD....

Have boyfriend = No Boyfriend....?

how do u think about this...?
is it have bf, your life will be more colourful and enjoyable...?

ya...for me is yes.


have bf, i can chat with him when i wan to chat...

have bf, i can hug hug him when i need some safety feel...
have bf, will have somebody take care on me...
have bf, i can do many things with him...shopping, movie'ing, and etc.

but now....
i have bf = no bf....
why....?

we lack of time to communicate...
no more hug hug when i need....
no more caring when i am sad and ft...
no more ppl can do something with me...
no more...............

what can i do....?
what can i do to change all this situation....?
get a new bf....?
move to his house....?
or juz get married.....?

i dont know....dont know what should i do...?
very confuse about it....
since i back to my hometown, our relationship was oledi not good as b4...

i had already get used that he are not beside me when i facing problems....

get used that when i confuse nobody will give me opinion...
get used that no hug hug is needed ...
get used that i can live without him....
i get used to many things that is without him....

is it changing a situation is better for us...?

I dont know............................................

Thursday, July 23, 2009

~ I am who I AM~

hei...long time i had not updated my blog...
many thing s were happenned...
but no time to write down here...

and following is my purpose why i am here:
1. happy belated Graduates for all my classmates and Tarcian who graduated on 11th July.
2. thanks for those who wishes me and thanks for your gifts especially you, chui sim.
3. i was quit from my job. now i am 100% free and waiting for your date.hahaha.
4. erm...may be i will continue my study in utar on jan' 10 intake.
5. hope my freshies you al can help me to find a nice house which in low rental.Haha...quite difficult task yah!!!
6. now i am finding some part time job. if you have pls recommend to me oh. juz call me. THANKS!
7. Maxis broadband better or streamyx better...?
8. ying ying, dont be so touch when reading my blog lah...i sayang sayang lah..hehe


many things wan to say and pics wan to post...
i will update my blog slowly...dont be so panic ok...?
haha....

stephy...i dont know y i cant comment on your blog...
erm....feel happy when see u and your KING been so good in KL.
study there is a good decision in your life.
hope you study well there and enjoy your life too..^_^!!!!
and help me greet pik yee oso...i miss her too...haha

"pik yee, happy graduates. and hope u study well there.hehe...."

Tuesday, June 16, 2009

Last Thursday & fridaY...

i was going to penang island on last week...
it juz a relax and finding delicious food trip...
our mission to go there is...eating, eating and eating....

we booked a presidential suite of The Northam Hotel....
quite nice de leh....
got a living room, 2 bedrooms, a mini bar, and a meeting room....
2 bedrooms oso held with jaqcuzi...
but i was not try for it due to some reasons....

once we arrived penang island...
our first destination is Jalan Anson...eating "DURIAN"...
wow....very delicious....
actuali it juz a small road side stall...under a shady tree...
with few tables and chairs...and the price----"Expensive"!!!!
but many ppl came and go to eat durian...especially office men and women...
everyone wearing formal suite but eating durian with hand de...
haha....

after that we go to check in and take rest...
we take a short snap after settle down all our luggage and finished viewing our room...
hehe...
at the nite, we went to a seafood shop named "Bali Hai"...
we ate crab, prawn, fish, fried mee and fried rice...
lepas tu, we go walk walk at Batu Ferringhi...
after that we bought Nasi Kandar and some beers and having it in our room...

2nd day morning, we went to eat bak kut teh....
hehe...after that we back to Durian Stall again...HahahA...
this time we didnt eat there..but we "da bao" go back onli eat de....
we went back after we finished da bao...

Tuesday, June 9, 2009

RedAng Pics...

summer more more tea inn...many couples and families taking photo here...
there is a souvenir shop....
this is the scene that took from the restaurant...


b4 we step on the way home..we had a big family pic...1..2...3...smile...

this the pic that i took into the sea...
this is the 1st time i go for snorkelling...
so challenging...and memorable because i cannot swim..
although with the safety clothes...but i juz cant control my direction to go to..
haha...










Friday, June 5, 2009

Redang Trip...

it was the 2nd time i write about my trip...
hope it wont dismiss again...hehe...
k lah...dont wan write so much things de...
Redang is quite a nice place for couples...
low budget...but u can get a good memory...

haiz...sad....photo cant upload de...
will be on next time...k...?
hehe....

my birthday coming soon....
at here i oso wish my good friend, mun ee, Happy Happy Birthday!!!
So happy to meet u and feel so magic that we are the same birthday babes...!!!

and happy birthday for Joey Tan, wish u study well...
and happy birthday for Wilson Tang, wish u study well and be well with batman!!!
haha...

WE ALL ARE "JUNE BABES"!!!!!

help!!!

Help...y all those post tht i posted all missing...?
haiz.......waste my effort and time lah....
blogger dont joke me with this lah...
hahaha.....

Thursday, April 30, 2009

tHe Day I IN hOmetown

SSSSOSOSOSOSOS boring yah.................
miss my dear so much de
hahaha...
dont know how were my friends.....
mun ee......how r u...?
pik yee...how are u....?
chui sim....how are u....?
and etc....

miss them so much....
muackzzzzz...........

long time didnt on9...
over 100++ e mail....i didnt read yet...
haiz.....

lazy to work oso....
if work at anson....cant see dear everyday....
if at ipoh...than will see him everyday....
where should i go de....
difficult to make decision lah...

Friday, April 17, 2009

GraDuaTe SoOn~~

so fast 2day is the last day i study in tarc kampar....
yesterday were having a farewell dinner with all the Coursemates and lecturers...
the dinner started around 6.45pm...
ms. kashietta brought us a nice blueberry cake with strawberry topping..
mr chan and her were giving us comments in the dinner..
while we oso acquired to giv a thank you speech...

suddenly think back this 2 years..i gone through so many things...
felt touching that i had gone through all this and be a diploma graduater now...
at here i wan to giv a short speech..

first at all i wan thanks to my parents who giv me financial support to study here...
no matter what i had done they so love me so much...
and than thanks for royce tan chun keat who brings me and help me to choose this course...
feel sad that i cant graduate 2gether with u...
but u are a great friend...
following i wan to thank for those friends who leave me and come to me...
for the friends who left me..
thank you so much bcoz of u i learned a lot of things...
for the friends came to me...i love u and thanks you bcoz u all are standing beside of me when i happy or sad...
thank you...especially chuisim, munee, ying ying, selene, pik yee, robirdz and etc.
bcoz of u all...i still standing here toughly...

thanks to all my lecturers...u are great teachers and teaching me patiently although i am a trouble student that owayz skipping classes...
thanks for those who helped me b4...may be i cant remember ur names...but i will appreciate for every simple help that u gav me...
thanks you...

yesterday when i giving my speech..i almost cry bcoz reali feel like so fast i gone through all this and many times i think wan to stop my study but at the end i didnt do so and continue on it..

2 years time juz gone like that....
may be friends oso will be gone after 2day....
what to do..?juz hope that when free we still can contact each other...
longer conversation is no needed..juz drop a how are u msg to friends when free...
a true friends oso is tru friends although less contact...

haiz....dont know whether i am happy or sad now...
happy...?
sad...?
but i am blasting music now..
last time i blasting music at Kampar..
may be i will not come back here anymore...

Tuesday, April 14, 2009

my Dear & mE

dont know y..
Today suDdenly very Miss mY deAr de...
sTill caNt gEt use the Day without hIM.

beCause of me...
alMost CaUsed him Come to find Me...
bEcause i SicK de...

OwayZ rAining This fEw dayS...
i aM the Type wHo DoesNt like to use Umbrella...
So oWayz gEt WeT loH...

Hope dEar at My siDe Take cAre on me De...
bUt cAnt lAh..
hE Got to Work...
but i Will reCover vEry fasT dE...
that Day We Hav ToOk SomE Pics dE...
Here TheRe...

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&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&
last nite so hungry i cooked a Mee eAt de...
jUz RealiZed i lOng TimE DidNt Cook fOr mY DeaR le...

Wednesday, April 8, 2009

One mOre WeEk to go...

Time gone so fAsT...
now juz lefT one more week for meTo go...
afTer This sem may be i not longer to stay aT kampar le...
kampar is a nice place...very relaxable...
if i decide to furTher my study, i will come back kampar again...
compeTitive level here much lower Than outside...
but rumour are..hehe...
juz dont care the f*cking rumour lah...
place small...noThing to do de...
so juz aware on oTher ppl loh...
haha...

juz lefT 2 more Tests onli...
after This i will be considered as a diploma graduaTer de...
DIPLOMA...
sinceThe beginning i came here...
i felT so difficulT to pass all the semesTer and final exam...
but atThe end i finally had passed all....
so happy...

afTer this semesTer..
donT know where can i go...
eiTher further my sTudy...or working...?
haiz...anoTher big decision need To make..
if sTudy, i lazy...
if working, i need to compeTe with oThers...

pass Through all 6 semesTers at here...
i geT knew of new friends....and i also losT so much friends here...
may be afTer this sem we will lack of chances To meet again...
everyone busy for their future...
haiz...
but for me...if is true friend, lack of contact also is true friend...
hehe...is it i too confident...?
i Think is...hehe
no maTter how lah...

for my friends...
Try your best for your future...
although u are so hard to fighT with others...but u can get a beTter life in the future...
be Tough..be confident..
as a friend here sure i will supporT u all...
"加油"

Monday, April 6, 2009

with mY dear This fEw Days

this few days i was stay together with my dear...
thursday and friday he accompany me in kampar...
sending me to school and hostel...
friday nite we arrived ipoh de...
at the nite...
we went shopping with his family..
although i didnt buy anything...
but i had tried the “田鸡”porridge...
wah...
so nice leh....
porridge smooth and the meat oso very smmoth oso...

heheh.....saturday morning we slept until afternun onli woke up de...
after lunch, we went to search the info about our redang trip...
going one agent and one....so tired...
but unless i gained so much knowledge about redand island de...

at the midnite we went for a movie in the cinema "the shinjuku incident"...
so tired after movie almost 2.30 sumthing le...
but the movie very nice...interesting...should have a look if u not yet watch it...
sunday we wached another movie at noon...
the fast and furious...
haha......the main character so handsome lah...
haha...but not the type that i will fall in love with...
hehe....the movie not bad de...if u prefer car, sure u must watch ths movie....

2day my bf dad fetc me came back kampar de....
feel sad bcoz want to leave my dear...
dont know when can see him again...
he bought a watch for me de....
although not very expensive but very memorable for me...
hehe....

Wednesday, April 1, 2009

hE Coming 2Molo

He CoMing 2molo de....
so Happy and waIting hiM at Here...
Finally Can hUg Him In the NiTe le....
I FeEl Like wan Cry de...
^~^

cHanGinNg HaiR CoLor AgAin dE...

Waahaha...
My hair change color again de...
try so much colours b4...
blue...green...red...violet...blonde...
finally everything come to the natural...
this time thecolor i choose is Dark bRown...






















haha...not so comfortable with it...
but it make me look more "honest"...
haha....dont know how to describe lah..
never dye so dark color b4 except when the school officer caughting me dye hair when in secondary school...

erm...thanks mun ee gav me a good choice..

yesterday whole nite hugging my 7zai when sleep...
caused my arm felt so pain in this morning...
haiz...dont know when onli can hug hug my dear when sleep de...
realli miss him alot de...
















ok lah....dont think so much le...
2 tests coming on the same day...
FRIDAY Test for IT and Tamadun...
oH mY goD...
so Scare about that lah...
i Hate Tamadun....Somemore it is in Malay Languange...
what a Big Challenge...
should study le...but still no mood...
haha....^_^


k lah...wan study loh...bye bye ^*^

Monday, March 30, 2009

distance...

distance reali can make everything change de...
the culture..
the human being...
the language...
and etc....

what distance had done on u...?

for me,
distance make me cant see my dear everyday...
it make me miss my dear everyday...
owayz thinking what he doing there...
is it he got take meal or not...
got cover blanket or not...
got take good care on himself or not...
haha...is it i think too much de...?
no lah...b4 he owayz at my side mah...
than now he working jor...
so quite miss the day he around me de...
hehe....
distance make me got something wrong de...haha...
owayz thinking wat time can go find him...
when can see him...
haiz...dont know he got miss me like that or not...
hope he got lah...

how about u all...?
do u think "distance" is very cruel...?
for me...it is.!!

Thursday, March 26, 2009

nowadays..

day by day..
gone so fast...
i finally can put myself in the environment...

my dear was at ipoh now..
very miss him..
since he work...
we less chatting...
sms...
and hug hug oso...

so miss the days he was around me anytime...
can hug him when i juz wan to hug him...
can kiss him when i wan to k iss him...
can quarrel with him when i wan to quarrel with...
haha....the days were very happy for me..

but now...
i cant kiss him when i wan to kiss with...
i cant hug hi when i wan to hug with...
i cant even find someone chatting woth me on the bed...

dear,
i miss u lah..
miss u so much...
b4 this i didnt appreciate the days u around me...
but now i regret le...
although wan to see u oso very difficult now...































Tuesday, March 24, 2009

i am fine de

pass through the whole week..
finally i can accept that they were not around anymore..
i starting live happily...learn happily...

so happy that..
many friends around me when i in sadness...
thanks friends...

2day i juz came back from ipoh...
sick 2 days de...so suffering...
haha....

anyway,...thanks you for those who support me behind of me...
thanks

Tuesday, March 17, 2009

my mummy...

finally..yesterday his dad came and help him move back all things go back Ipoh le...
i have less chance to meet him de...

yesterday..suddenly felt that the world wan juz left me alone..
no bf...no friends...
no food...

i very sad and cried de...
i called my mum and crying when i chatting with her...
mummy so worry on me...
although i cry so sad she oso didnt cry and some more advice me dont sad and be tough...
said i am adult and cant cry like that....
....
my mum so sayang me de...
i know she wan to accompany but she cant do that bcoz she still need to take care on my sis and my dad...

nvm de...
mummy...i will be tough de...
i can eat alone here...
go school alone...
stay alone here...
i will be tough...
i know u all are supporting behind of me...
thanks mummy...
dont worry me lah..

Monday, March 16, 2009

now...

so many things happened suddenly..
now...
juz left me alone here...
my bf oso not around le...
suddenly so lonely de...

mun ee....i know u are so support me...
thank you so much...
i knew u are very worrying on me...and scare me will think sumthing negative...
thank you so much....
if without u all in this few days...
i think may be i cant continue in kampar jor...
bcoz i reali very fed up oledi...

Saturday, March 14, 2009

mandy and janice

how are u all at there...?
u 2 married jor...
dont owayz quarrel jor...ok...?

janice, i will remember what u told me in that nite for my whole life...
mandy, i oso will remember what u told me and i promised to u all that i will try my best...
no matter how...i oso will try my best...
if cant, nvm de...i know u all will come in my dream and chat with me again...rite...?

janice, u are so pretty on that nite...
mandy oso very handsome oso...
both of u so matched...
i proud with u all...

between 4 pairs of us...
jason n selene..
greg with steph...
me and shu...
u and mandy...
onli u 2 can last forever...

u no need to worry that some more will rampas mandy from u...
bcoz now mandy juz belong to u one person onli...
onli for u...
one peson...

Tuesday, March 10, 2009

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

arghhhh.................
fucking damn angry de...
no seat than say no seat loh...
some more ask me to wait wor..
i m gal leh...can u pls care me more...
how cum u can continue playing now de...
worst lah u..like shit...

Thursday, March 5, 2009

last nite..

last nite we argue very seriously...
i even is the 1st time very angry until i shouting very loudly on him...
this is 1st time i very very angry on him...
a lot of things we argue last nite...

i dont know somemore got wat reasons i still wan to stay with him...
i really dont know...
really very headache...
i dont know should i continue to wait him make a change...

but he this time promised to me that he will change...
i reali want to wait for him...
i think i reali erali love him de...
may be mun ee is true...
i love him...juz i didnt realize...
i love him until i cant live without him...

thanks mun ee...
u help me a lot...
what u advice on me...
i back home and think and think...
i realize some thing that i had ignoring...

any way...
i will wait him to change...
in this semester...

dear..i love u...
hope u can be a well bf...
i wait u here with my truely heart...

Wednesday, March 4, 2009

i and him

2day i ran out from my room and hide in the school canteen...
i dont know how to face him...
i crying and crying...
very regret...

ya...from the beginning is me who approved him smoking...
he also promised to me that he will juz smoke when exam..

but now..
he is not....
he smoke when he is free...
he smoke when he is boring...
he smoke when he is nothing to do...
he smoke when his friends are smoking...

should i remind him again...?
no...
y i must remind him...?
what he told me...
i owayz put in my mind...
y he cant put what i told him in his mind...?
that is very not fair...

when he found me..
he juz keep going on scolding and scolding...
did he realize that the problem not at my side...?
juz knew to scold me that i ran out and didnt tell him...
didnt bring hp along...
and so on...

haiz....
please lah...
can u stand at my side and think for me...?
if i keep going on ask u dont smoke...
what will u say later..?
last time i accompany at your side...
u said i tied u up...
if i still asking u dont smoke...
may be u will say i care so much...

u this type of guy..
juz know how to take care yourself..
what i do for u...
u said i care too much...
what i didnt tel u..
u said i keep as secrets...
if i tell u when u done wrong...
u said i require too much...
u wan hug hug me when sleep...
u said i am very important for u...
when in the day u wan to be alone...
and hope i not at your side...

hei man...
i am not a bitch...
when u need me u juz ask me to stay...
when dont need me u ask me to leave...
u are too irresponsible...
where got couple like that one...?

Tuesday, March 3, 2009

result...

finally, result came out de...
not so bad...
but good as my expected...


his result not adapt to wat we think ...
and out of our expected...
i dont know y it can be like that..

hope he can accept it and work more harder next time..

dear,
i support u owayz...
no matter wat u do...
i will stand beside u...
to accompany u..
i love u..
muackzzz.....

Monday, March 2, 2009

ipoh..

last weekend...
i and derick went to ipoh again de...
we go for a movie "love matters" on sunday...
and he bought me a pair of shoes on saturday...
and we bought 2 pieces of jackets de...

finally i can have something same with my dear except for our rings lah...
rings are very important for us lah..
we put in on our fingers 24/7/365...

so fast..
sem break over....
new sem coming....
and start 2molo...
result will come on this coming tuesday...
so nervous...
scare i cant fulfill all the subjects this time...

haiz...
wat to do...
juz wait for it lah...
god bless me...
thanks god..